Thursday, 3 December 2015

Life as a single mummy with IBS

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So as if life wasn't hard enough as a single mummy to 2 kids under 7, I also have Irritable Bowel Syndrome ‘IBS’ to add to the mix. Now I touched on this subject in my post about flying with IBS, but today something happened which made me feel so guilty about my IBS that I had to write about it.
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Just to give you the condensed back story; I got really bad food poisoning in 2013 which basically ruined my stomach. I then spent around a year in and out of hospitals seeing specialists, having x-rays, blood tests and scans. I even had an endoscopy (which is more painful than childbirth by the way) only to confirm what my GP had already assumed; that I had bad IBS.
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So unlike the ‘standard’ IBS that may be triggered by one thing, like a particular food or activity, mine has absolutely no pattern so I don’t even know what to avoid to lessen my chances of having an attack. What’s an attack? I hear you ask. The main one is basically being confined to the toilet, imagine overdosing on laxatives, yep, that bad. My attacks also include my stomach bubbling and feeling uncomfortable, feeling heavy and bad bloating; it actually feels like someone is inside my stomach pushing it outwards, then there's the excruciating pain that leaves me unable to stand up straight or walk, then my heart starts racing which then leads to me have bad anxiety and panic attacks.
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My IBS is so unpredictable I don’t even know how to prepare for it I only know how to deal with it when it comes. Take today for instance , I ate the same breakfast I have every morning; 50/50 toasted bread and herbal tea. Now yesterday I had this exact same thing and was completely fine, but today for some reason it triggered an attack.
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So after retiring to the toilet I decided to take my usual mix of meds just so that I could actually leave to take the kids to school as none of us like to be late. Now I know this cocktail of drugs normally takes 30mins to 1hr to kick in, but because I just wanted to get the kids to school I decided to leave and hope they kicked in quicker than normal, which was obviously a really dumb idea. Halfway to school my stomach started to feel funny so we then had to turn around and rush back home so that I could be reunited with my best friend the toilet, again. So with there being no chance of me taking the kids, I then had to call their school and tell them I was unwell and running late, I then had to find someone to drop them as I physically couldn't leave home.
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On top of me already feeling bad for making the kids so late for school, Cali told me the Pantomime was coming to school this morning and because of how late they were going to be they would probably miss it, which made me feel extremely guilty and annoyingly made my stomach feel worse. I know how much my 2 love the Panto and I felt terrible that them missing it was all my fault.
Luckily although Cali was upset and not my friend, RD took it all in his stride, he wasn't all that fussed about being late or the Panto, he was more concerned with trying to look after me and help me feel better. That’s definitely one of the good things about having a son, they are very loving and protective.
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Now it pisses me off when my IBS prevents me from doing things for myself but I absolutely hate it when my IBS effects the kids. I also don’t like the kids seeing me sick, especially RD as he worries a lot about me and I don’t want him stressing, he’s only 5! Most of the time I will hide when I'm in pain but the times I can’t even stand up I can’t even pretend I'm fine when I'm in that much pain. So in conclusion, this stupid IBS is slowly ruining my life :(


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